To Forgive and Forget (well maybe not forget...)

Last year was really a turning point in my life. Up 'till the end of 08, I was a really bitter person, and only focusing on the bad going on in my life at present, and past; and not on all the good. Well It hit me really hard that I had to stop and forgive and apologizes for the things that have happened to me, and for the things I have done...

Like for instance, in 2005, some things happened to me that really messed me up emotionally (I don't really want to go into detail), and I lost a lot of trust in people, and put up huge barriers so I wouldn't get hurt again. Well as I started to forgive (though I'm not sure I'll ever forget), little by little my barrier started to come down, and I started to be a little more like the person I was before.

I feel much better now about the things in the past, and that's just what they are: the past. I have to look ahead and not dwell on things that happened, and start thinking on the good things that could happen. Life has it's up and downs, I'm just starting to except the downs and to be able to move on.

Last year I forgave and apologized for all the things that bothered me, and God has really blessed me with some good things in 09 and 10!

Like I said, hopefully one day I'll be able to forget certain things, but for now I'm happy to forgive.

Thanks for reading, take care and God bless, cheers! = )

-Brynn

The Year For Love?...

That's what it's starting to look like for 2010. It seems to me that everyone I know, is either falling in love, or getting married or engaged, or renewing their vows. I'm very happy for all my friends and family out there that have found that special someone, and being happy. As far as my love life goes...Well I'm still looking. Now don't get me wrong, there is someone that I like, but it hasn't gone any farther then that, lol. ; -) I feel like this is the year for me. Things that have happed to me in the past have really put a different outlook on dating and relationships for me, and this is the year, that I'm starting to forgive and forget.

My heart is always open for love, and God has blessed me with such amazing and supportive friends and family that have helped me through the though times. In years past, I would get so upset about being single, or when I would see a happy couple pass me; and I'm excited to say that it doesn't bother me anymore (or at least when it's not during that time of the month, hee-hee)! For all you single people out there (including me), I know it's really hard sometimes to not have your special someone (believe me, I probably know how hard it is the most, what being single for the past 3 years...), I have noticed that I tend to get asked out more, if I just stop worrying, and put it in God's hands, and (here's the really hard part) wait. I know that someday, I'll be as lucky as my big sister, and have a husband that is my best friend and lover. = )

The Beatles had it right with "I want to hold your hand"! That's what I want, a friend, relationship, love. There's someone out there for us all, we just have to be patient sometimes. ; - )

All for now, wow, it's been awhile since I've posted anything, lol. Thanks for reading, and God bless! = )

-Brynn